Come 2 Stay or Never Do

The fight I aint giving in
my only ever aim
the only wish I'd ever make is
never to feel you on your knees
begging me please...
no more ultimate is it
when I get to make you hear this
I wish I could have you beside me
whenever I find the words to make you feel
what I've felt it deep
cherished it in depths of me
so cold here where I chose to dwell
it's a voice so sick and restless
it's a look so deep inside still burning
coz there's some air left between yet smelless
it's hard to see but it feels easy
and it's enough to help it burn still
don't you leave me judging with them
don't you make me feel sorry again...

I Wish U'd Known

I'm mystified
I don't know when
I don't know where
a head question infested
a heart devoted to desire
So far from myself every time
I slip I just let it fall
and I fall...I can't defy

I don't wish you were here
coz you would come to me but
to tuck me in and leave
when you know I stay up tonight
but I've turned in...I can't sleep
that's what you want and I don't mind
coz you want it so you care still

let me make you laugh
let me hear you sometimes
let me pray
give me hope...

So Fearless When You Are Gone

As you take every single step away
I become little more brave to walk in the dark
As your shadow fades through the night
I dare to chase the howl of wolves sometimes
Even a cold home somewhere out
Seems safe enough to hide
Yeah you go away again as I guessed
and Ill miss my fear through the fire
Through the dark
Let any thief come along
Let the thunder crash the sky
Let the rain pour
I stay still so fearless
When you're gone
Ive got nothing else to lose
and you're gone... .

Shame Seeked U Not Me

Said it needs time 
What if I'm pulled just on the boundary 
Back to where truth tears the lies 
I made to explain why you left me apart...

Ah what made you so cold at once
All of the dreams you ran in my mind
Left me starring at my empty hands
Wandering how could you greet me so glad after all

Now I see all I've been afraid of
Had taken place already
And I've been denying it 
Through the haze you left me in 

It still can't make me feel ashamed 
You didn't let me know 
You're the one to blame
You left me incomplete 
Hope you burn a little in the flame you send me in

When you saw me on the bench 
I could see your smile fade 
Hear your sorry language 
But only when he caught your eyes beside me
Brazen filled you again 
Great chance to spit the blame on me

I don't care whether you sigh later or not 
Or how often our memories cross your mind 
Because I bury my pulse inside
Perhaps a little sorry but I, just don't feel ashamed at all 

No matter how I felt already 
Hope you sink in the tears 
Run out of the eye 
Once you'd stare silent in

Somebody 2 Talk 2

HeyOoW....!
Well...this time I'd rather say nothing just if you take a glance at my poem it may help you understand why I'm avoiding explaining any clearer...this is related to what happened 3 months ago just a couple of days before my birthday...of course I recently wrote this poem and it really has helped me feel much better so far...here it goes...
I wish I had somebody to talk to
when past is rehashed to me
when my moods get changed again
when my eyes are full of tears
I only wish I had somebody to talk to
when something keeping avoiding recalling it
comes back to you and it just looks new
it's got you in with it
you still live in that moment with him
even thinking of him makes you panicked
a sudden rush requiring an immediate response
happening to someone living in her another lifestyle
unacquainted to betraying a trust or lies
noway to compromise! 

((you've got to do it pal!))

deeply feel the pain in you, your soul...it hurts...breaks me down
drags me there again
disasters are happening again and again
I'm back to that dilemma again
oh every thing's taking place again
I'm filled with too weird feelings
I could never ever imagine !
when I can still hear the things
I was forced to deal with
when the break in my pride knocks my breath off
when the wound of my soul begins to bleed
till it's full to the brim
my relief gets ruined by giving the loudest color to my spirit
when I hardly resist believing it
I was fooled so easy without a weep or anything !
so easy to cheat...
when I'm full of unshared words full of secrets and sorrows
I wish I had somebody to talk to
but there's always a sigh
that's left in it every time
when the pain catches my throat
when I become a drama to tell
a paragraph, a sentence
with a pitiless word that dominates the incident
I wish I had somebody to talk to
somebody...somebody that just listens to me
understands me...somebody feeling what I feel
somebody that doesn't blame me....no I don't need her to talk !...
just a human being to listen up...:((
 

Tradition Prison

      For a long time no updates! But I'm back finally ! I have just come from swimming pool ! That was gr8! I have drank a peach juice and ready to update my blog after a whole long time ! I'm in a coffee net to upgrade the blog coz I can't access to the internet via Filter Shekan at home. Right now I'm listening to "Some body that I Used to Know"-Gotye ! It's an awesome song ! Now I want to share a song that I just wrote it today after the debate that I had with my mom! Unfortunately, talking to her always ends to a loud discussion! So I came a.s.a.p straight upstairs and felt like writing a song to empty me! Then I found it interesting to share here! As always, hope you love it! ;) 

Get you sufficiently under the pressure to explode 

tell you whatever they know you disagree everyday 

force you to do what they want 

where you're forced to face the fact which is the pain

the pain of gettin' your tongue cut

when freedom in the prison of tradition shouts out 

inside of you so loud 

this is what is called 

teenage life in Iran 

I'm depressed of hearin' what I hate 

depressed of disrespect 

fuckin' tight up by their power 

I hate respect over the cash 

I'm a lost talent 

but even if it'd be possible 

I'd not show up here

I hate my country, people around me...

their thought's trapped in tradition prison 

they're baffled over sudden changes 

so they hung between figuring out this and that 

even though there are lots of stubborn stuck in the past 

opposed to changes even for eliminatin' them they are fans

it made me so rough and flexible to figure out 

what to do when people wanna put you down 

where no one advocates any innovation 

where tradition takes the lead and rebels get broken down 

and others only try to get them out of their path 

where origins remove from the center and borders take the seat 

where the base n constitution is upside down ! 

where people don't mind what happens to them 

they satisfy by the bad rather than the worse ! 

and they try to erase each other from their way

where main rules of livin' are forgotten and the fake is on the power 

there's no hope to jump from the ground to pass the mass 

where darkness won't let the lights show the way so they fade away... .

:(

I'm On the Edge Of Glory With U!

     Oh my! It'd been a long time I'd not written anything in my blog! Well, I logged in n browsed blogs, signed in at yahoo! n facebook but I didn't upload my blog coz of some reasons. Let me tell you that I've had a lot of fun just after school ended. The night I released from school n took my last exam was my sis b-day party! The next day, my mom n sis n I went to Tehran. There we went to Darake n Farahzad with my young n cool uncle! We got out of the car in Darake n smoked! OMG! What fun it was! Then I went out with one of my old friends that had just come back Iran after 4years from USA! See, these days I was so busy but cheered! But still the thought of a real party crosses my mind...oh gosh I wanna be free just like what u want for me!

     "the Edge Of Glory" ; this song of Lady GaGa has stuck in my mind n I can't reject it...I mean I don't wanna reject it! I love the song n its music video! It cheers me up n makes me fuckin excited! Damn! Michael Jackson n Lady GaGa are the greatest artists! Although Lady GaGa never can't reach to Michael Jackson's perfect rank! I don't wanna say I love him coz it fuckin hurts me! when I think he's gone now, a frustratin or a freakin depressin feelin inside me really hurts me!

     Let it go now! Let me tell ya what I look for in a man! OMG! He should be a gallant man! it's extremely valuable for me that a man respects a woman. Yeah! He should be a rude boy! A rebel like me! A kind but a funny boy that makes me laugh all the time! Face isn't much important but he should be handsome n somehow body building man! He should wear trendy outfits! An urban style would be just perfect! I love it the most! hehe! I know what u're thinkin about! I got it! Alright! I'd better cut my dreams about my ideal coz he can hardly be found! Yup! that's exactly why i haven't date anyone yet! Of course it's not the only reason! I believe datin in this age won't bring good consequences in the future as I've seen it in my aunts n my sis... . that was all...Bye! ;)